May.11.2010 Just a simple note

when i wrote this post, i`m in my state of disappoinment or stressed and all.

although i`m in a long holiday which must make me very happy like what i wrote in my post before.

But, in the reality, many things makes me down lately.

especially about My Mom

she really makes me down. i can`t bear it anymore.

ugh... There`s many-many things that makes i hate her more and more everyday.

huaaaaaaa ><

Next, is about something that i always yearn for years to get and to get but i couldn`t got it yet.

I chose to keep it my secret and can`t tell what it is even in my blog D:

of course, it can`t be bought with money.

And i hate to be like this!!

I hate it when i envy and jealous with other people`s talent, beauty, etc

I must realized that God create me for who i am.

And i must have my own talent and my own things to be proud of.

Still, i can`t drive my jealousy away when i saw other`s greatness.

I also hate my super-sensitive personality!

I`ll tell in this post that i am very easy to cry..

very-very easy to shed tears..

Anything that annoyed me, although for other people is a simple problem, will makes me cry in a second

I don`t know why my tears come out so sudden.

I always try to not shed tears easily but i can`t help it...

Instead of that, i`m a moody person..

when i cried, if the people who makes me cry apologize to me utterly or maybe makes jokes of me to makes me stop crying, i will stop crying and can smile even laugh again in a second too! :D

strange? but it`s real.

I`m also impatient and easy to bad mood..

I can`t teach my bro and sis the lesson for their school well because i`m impatient and will angry if they can`t understand what i have taught.

hahaha.

So, i think i won`t be a teacher :p

haha. So many things that makes me down lately

I will try to change my bad habit as much as possible.

I don`t want to keep my bad habit till i become an adult, hahaha

I just hope that things will get better :DDD

God Bless Me ^^